This week. Where do I start? It’s not been terrible - not as bad as the darkness I felt before this 'all in’ thing. It’s more been a manageable level, a dull pain, like the way old broken bones ache in the cold. I find myself questioning where and how this cycle starts. Does it start with food? Or is controlling food how I cope with things that feel hard? I’m not saying I have relapsed or given up on ‘all in’ - but little ‘cheats’ have started creeping in; which I know can qu

Recovery - I wake up and I already feel anxious; it’s quite intense. My heart is beating, blood pumping in the way it does when you step out

In 'The Power of Vulnerability' Brené Brown talks about foreboding joy, which, put simply is always preparing yourself for the worst, a ‘dress rehearsal for tragedy’. It is the belief that things can’t stay good forever, so you try to desensitise yourself to disaster by anticipating it. Which is exactly how I feel right now. I look in the mirror and for the first time in my memory I like my adult body. Maybe it’s down to the strength training I have been doing recently. I hav

We are just over a week into this ‘all in’ recovery journey and already I feel like a snowball. I often use the analogy of a snowball to des

Photography by Louise Anne Photography 1st - 2nd February, 2020 It has snowed every time I’ve hosted a retreat in February - something that has always added to the cosiness of hiding inside the wooden walls of the Acorn. We wrap ourselves up in blankets, read the books that Katie (who owns and created the Acorn) has gathered over the years, drink heaps of tea, eat delicious warming food, and, of course, do lots of yoga. The weekends are always super chilled. You get time to r

If you spend time in the world of fitness on social media you will likely have heard of Stephanie Buttermore - the health and fitness blogger who started her ‘All In’ journey 5 months ago. After competing in body building competitions a number of years ago Stephanie maintained a very lean body composition; think defined muscles and visible abs: the kind of body many of us are striving for. But after a number of years she started to feel the negative effects that often come wi